Saturday was a bit slow, after work, Wee & Raine decided to cook. I went over to pick up Fen from the airport. She just came back from Hong Kong. Seng & my parents will be back probably on wednesday.
Went to church on Sunday after a long leave of absence. Had a good time mingling with Penny, Jo & the guys. One thing that's comforting is that I always feel welcome there. It's a nice warm fuzzy feeling. I guess that's the draw. In a world that's harsh, it's nice to go someplace where people (myself included) actually let their hair/guard down. Sometimes, in "my" world, I need to look over my shoulder.........at least twice. Maybe I'm too paranoid :) Better safe than sorry (Hey, I'm jaded, sue me :P).
Chatted with Mei, we talked about taking my life more seriously. Hmmmm, I guess everyone sees things differently. That's the beauty of diversity. Can you imagine a world with only 1 kinda car, 1 kinda shirt, 1 kinda pants, 1 color and (God forbid!) everyone likes the same girl. Would be boring wouldn't it.
Looking at my bros, it seems that they've found their purpose. They're happily working on raising their kids. They're spending their time now building deeper friendships. In comparison with them, I feel that I'm still rather directionless. Oh well, I guess I'll work on achieving self-actualization after my esteem needs are met. Just in case some of you are interested to know in detail about Maslow's hierarchy of needs, more info can be found at Wikipedia. All the years in uni reading about Mr Maslow in psych class and I didn't even know he started out as a gay rights activist, working in gay night clubs and researching the dancers. Kinky :)
Went to church on Sunday after a long leave of absence. Had a good time mingling with Penny, Jo & the guys. One thing that's comforting is that I always feel welcome there. It's a nice warm fuzzy feeling. I guess that's the draw. In a world that's harsh, it's nice to go someplace where people (myself included) actually let their hair/guard down. Sometimes, in "my" world, I need to look over my shoulder.........at least twice. Maybe I'm too paranoid :) Better safe than sorry (Hey, I'm jaded, sue me :P).
Chatted with Mei, we talked about taking my life more seriously. Hmmmm, I guess everyone sees things differently. That's the beauty of diversity. Can you imagine a world with only 1 kinda car, 1 kinda shirt, 1 kinda pants, 1 color and (God forbid!) everyone likes the same girl. Would be boring wouldn't it.
Looking at my bros, it seems that they've found their purpose. They're happily working on raising their kids. They're spending their time now building deeper friendships. In comparison with them, I feel that I'm still rather directionless. Oh well, I guess I'll work on achieving self-actualization after my esteem needs are met. Just in case some of you are interested to know in detail about Maslow's hierarchy of needs, more info can be found at Wikipedia. All the years in uni reading about Mr Maslow in psych class and I didn't even know he started out as a gay rights activist, working in gay night clubs and researching the dancers. Kinky :)
7 comments:
Dearest, just living your own life would be enough to keep you busy :-) No doubt your brothers envy some aspects of your devil-may-care lifestyle, yah?! Well, your life is what you know best and as they say, better the devil you know than the devil you're not sure about. Go get them, babe.
Best,
Lily
:) Thank u, Thank u. Guess u understand how I feel eh. Not many can understand my perception of life.
As for the Idiom, "Better the devil u know than the devil u don't", I don't fully agree loe. I've known people who stay in bad relationships just for such reason. I say grow some balls and take a risk! I mean if u're already in a bad relationship and u're unhappy, what's the worse thing that can happen eh? God forbid, happiness?
Heh heh, sorry, that idiom just reminds me how I failed to help a dear friend see the "light".
>:D<
I think people already have balls but they may just need to find them. Then there are people who need some steel cups or something to protect them from shrivelling. I think I'm saying get to know yor balls. Or something... up to however you want to interpret it.
Best,
Lily
ROTFL
I dunno, I'm thinking the fear of loneliness probably supercedes the pain of a bad relationship. Sadly, this I'm speaking from experience & I can sympathize.
Taking a risk and trying still trump the fear of whatever. Yes, there is a probability of pain, but there is also a probability of gain. Grab life by the balls, darling.
Best,
Lily
But i do :) A little uncomfortable when walking around with me hands at my crotch, but who cares about those people who stare at me eh. :P
Some ppl dun even deserve that as a response :) just plain ignore them.
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